Today i came to a somewhat life altering realization.
I think i have had trouble closing the last chapter that has been occurring in my life. Therefore i’m scared to move and and creating a more meaningful and better chapter. It’s as if i’m watching everything around me move on. But why is it that things have to change? There’s not one thing or event or person that changes something or someone, that’s what i have been telling myself. I think it’s just life. That’s it. There’s nothing mind boggling about it. I, like the rest of the people my age, are at a time of a constant rate of change. That’s hard for me to except. It’s hard for me to think, “okay, these memories were great but i need create even better ones." I need to be confident that i can find people who are more like me. Why is that so hard sometimes?
And more importantly I want to have this thirst for life.
I want to be full of life and take advantage of every experience of someone my age. I think the last year of my life has been severely lacking. I’m stuck, I’ve been stuck. I’m not trying to get rid of anyone in my life who means something to me. Those people have helped me to realized this. I certainly want a change in people who will appreciate me and appreciate change. I've heard it said, “How can you get to your future, if your past is present?” I need to find people who motivate me to be who i want to be.
Which leads me to the concept of change.
"Keep the pictures; they don’t change, only the people in them do."